I had to be told last night to “not give up on her”. Those words put me in a different perspective to make me realize why I am really here and what my position is being here. Watching Stefanie struggle around the 2 laps on the track was painful. Not that watching her was hurting me but watching her face in agony and defeat was painful to see. I wanted to give her a boost or drag her around the track, anything just to finish but instead I found myself sitting back and just getting frustrated because I had no control over the situation. As many times as I said, “let’s go. Finish!” she made an excuse of why she should stop and as many times as I said “lets go, only 2 more laps” she tried to make a deal to shorten the distant. It was a loosing battle and all I kept thinking is, does she really want this!? I began to believe I wanted this a lot more and maybe because I wanted to see her happy or maybe because I got so caught up in this 90 day challenge, I couldn’t give up now and let it all go to waste watching what should have been a “run”. I knew when she started giving up, I couldn’t and as much as I would have loved to “teach her a lesson” and tell her if she’s not going to push herself then call me when she’s ready and walked out, I stayed. I stayed because I know deep down inside she does really want this. I stayed because she needs me to motivate her, even though yesterday I failed. I stayed because she needs to realize how important this is for her and how regardless of how hard it may get, I will still push her because we are in this together. Well I can go on forever but as far as the rest of the workout, it went well. She pushed herself and I think because she proved it to herself that she can run 5 laps and it will be painful, and it will SUCK (no better words to describe it) but it will definitely be worth it. Well Stefanie gave her side of the story so I had to give mine. I posted it on both blogs for those of you that don’t read mine!
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